20 January 2023, 17:10
Here’s the meaning behind the lyrics of Ed Sheeran’s newest track.
Ed Sheeran has paid tribute to the late Jamal Edwards with his latest freestyle for the relaunch of SBTV series ‘F64’.
The singers touching freestyle is for his friend and collaborator Edwards, who tragically passed away last year.
The video for Ed’s freestyle was filmed at Stamford Bridge – home of Jamal’s favourite team Chelsea, and here’s a breakdown of the lyrics.
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Since we last spoke, I’ve become a father of two / Trying to live life with a smile but that’s been harder to do
In this line, Ed is speaking about events that have happened since the death of the late Jamal, including the birth of his second child.
This emotional performance sees Ed delve deep into the aftermath of Jamal’s demise and how it has impacted his life going forward.
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Ed here reveals his daughter’s name, who was born in May 2022 after Edwards passed away.
He expresses his disappointment over Jamal not being able to meet his baby daughter.
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Here are the full lyrics for ‘F64’ by Ed Sheeran:
Yo Jam, this is a letter to youIt’s been a while, but it’s been hard for me to get in the boothSince we last spoke, I’ve become a father of twoTrying to live life with a smile but that’s been harder to do’Cause all I wanna do is talk about youBut these tears won’t let me talk about youWe should’ve known that we’d be lost without youTherapy sessions, digging deep in depressionI got a life full of blessings, but this just breaks my f*cking heartAt your birthday, couldn’t even crack a smileI just cried and left the party, Neesh, I’ll see you in a whileHeaded to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain’Cause that is the way that me and you would celebrate itI never knew you touched the stuff, ’cause you’d always bad me upYou saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it doesBefore Lyra I just stopped, I haven’t even wanted oneI can’t get over, this is fucked, man I wished I’d knownAnd yo, we cried for nine nights in your family homeLaid you to rest in the ground but without a stoneYou know it hits me most at moments, now when I’m aloneEvery morning, I remember that you’re really gone’Cause it’s been a long night and I cry ’cause I miss my brotherYou know for life, got your sis and motherAnd day and night, it still hits that you’re goneAnd right now, I’m spilling tears in my cupYou left the world before you met JupiterWish you’d have known, you would be godfatherYou would’ve loved loving my little girlsIf not for them, I’d be done with the worldWas there two hours after you passedSpeeding east to west, silent in the back of the carWas at your mum’s, there all week, trying to make sense but I can’tAnd although it’s been a year, still feel the pain in my heart’Cause you were there from the startThe day we met, yeah I moved in and we were never apartPeople assumed that we were lovers but we’re brothers in armsSymbiotic bond of love and gave each other a chance, my godAh, f*ck sake, lately I’ve been crying so much, my lungs acheTeardrops all over my shirt like blood stainsAnd I know to heal a heart, it must breakBut I’m done prayingThey gave me a shovel at your burial andWatching you get lowered is something I can’t forget at allAnd people find and stop me in the street and say it’s terribleBut they don’t know you like I knew you and they never willNo one saw the nights turn into day when we were battle rappingNo one saw the belly laugh, and every train to somewhere randomNo one saw the holidays, and then our first experience clubbingNo one knew the things you did for me and never asked for nothingNo one read the conversations of the moves that we were planningNo one knew about the way you felt the scene, left you abandonedNo one knew about your fears ’cause you would hide them with a smileNo one knew when people took an inch, you would give ’em a mile’Cause that was always Jamal, SB to the crowdThey used to shout your net worth, but they don’t mention it nowThey talk about your good deeds and infectious smileA golden heart that’s still remembered is worth more than a crownI promised sixty-four bars and now I keep it to TanishaMommy, Isaac, the gang, but I just wish that you’d seen itI can’t accept that you’re gone, or the grief that I’m feelingI prayed to God for answers but he still won’t give me a reasonI think about you every day, nothing will take this pain awayI’ll keep your legacy amazing, mateThe conversations at your grave’s the only way to be closeI know you’ll greet me with a smile on the day that I go’Cause it’s been a long night and I cry ’cause I miss my brotherAnd for life, got your sis and motherYou know I cry ’cause I miss my brotherMy brother was SBTV
